what's teenage love?

WHAT'S TEENAGE LOVE?

it's staying up late for each other & barely staying awake in class the next day. it's passing each other between classes & stopping to say Hi, but ending up running to your next class right before the bell rings. it's going to the mall, wandering around hand in hand, with a silence that's comfortable. it's watching a movie in the theaters with his arm slowly creeping onto your shoulders, & you resting your head in his arms. it's walking around at night, for no reason at all; his chest, her head, looking at the stars. it's uncertainty of how long it will last, a risk you're both willing to take, even if it means you'll have a broken heart. it's not yet true love, not like, nor lust, nor infatuation. it's teenage love, here to stay, here to play our hearts & never to go away.

[MAY, 12] What a bad day :'(

recently I accident dkt Sungai Petani, Kedah. actually that time I on my way nak balik Klang. went to Perodua for a service. keluar je from Perodua Service Centre Bakar Arang, accident. dkt T-junction. bumped into Honda Jazz colour hitam. (please refer to the picture yawww..)
so nervous masa tu.. keluar g kt kereta tu untuk mintak maaf and suddenly dapat tau the driver was a pregnant woman. DAMN! lagilah cuak kan...
her belly kena dkt stereng kereta, and she was crying that time.. her mother garang nak mampus ok.. siap pukul2 and tolak2 lagi.. i said I AM SORRY la aunty...
and she called her hubby who apparently working kt kilang nearby je..
then abang yg keja kt Perodua sgt gentleman dan baik hati terus bwk kakak tu g hospital nearby. " hantar I ke Hospital Pantai.. I xnak hospital lain.." fuhh, kaya kakak ni... ( dalam hati aku je la...)
and I was very very nervous okay... called Haziq Zulkifli. luckily dia ade kt rumah sewa. dia datang with Fendi. THANK YOU GUYS!
tak lama after that, Ira dtg dgn mak dia.. thank God.
after Sarjan Ramli dh dtg, ambik gmbr and mcm2 lg, terus pergi balai buat report. and then g bengkel tgk keta jap.. pastu baik Kulim. (rumah Ira)
stayed at Ira's for 2 days..
my case is a bit difficult because the baby isn't so healthy at that time. SHE's 2.5kg. but her mother is doing well. hmm, my dad decided to pay for the hospital bill which cost more than 5K. what the...???? and on Friday my dad, mama, and abahmok came to fetch me up.. they stay over at my place for 1 night.
the next day, kitorg g bengkel and check the car.. maybe siap dlm masa sebln kott..( Ah Beng yg cakap..) after that, terus gerak balik Klang.
5 hous later, HOME SWEET HOME BABY!!!!!

for those who involved, THANK YOU SO MUCH!!!
u guys don't know how much I really appreciate it.. I LOVE YOU!!!!!
I've learnt from my mistake. and kinda phobia to drive right now.. I'll try not to be a careless driver again. NEVER!

i am sick.

I'm having a full package of illness. out of sudden.

GREAT! <--- being sarcastic.

headache.
vomit.
flu.
unstable body temperature.
migraine.

took medicine. but still don't recover.
pray the best for my health.
AMIN.

fashion OR style ?

"The only rule is don't be boring and dress cute wherever you go. Life is too short to blend in"

-Paris Hilton-

this is so random and i don't know why

its been a while since i last updated my blog. too busy with assignments, test, quizzes and stuff. and now i'm facing with my final exam. its sooo crucial as it is my final year here in Kedah. hopefully the result will be as good as it was when i was in sem 1. this final year make me feel like giving up.. but Thank God, i've made it. thanks to my family yang tak habis2 support me and make me feel courage to finish up my studies.

Recently, i've been thinking a lot. besides the final paper, i've been thinking about my future plan. getting married? further study? or get a job? hurm, i'm going to further my studies of course. degree in corporate admin? or degree in admin science? doesn't matter la.. but hopefully dpt kat kedah. why? maybe for those yg originally not from s.alam or klang or sekitarnya will feel excited to go to s.alam campus. but for me, s.alam has been like my hometown coz i'm living in klang for about 22 years now. maybe some will think that s.alam is better coz the facilities, infrastructure, accomodation and stuff like that. but for me, kedah is better as i am already familiar with this town (or should i say village), the people, foods, the lecturers, the campus and on top of that, i already have a rent house and cool housemates! hurm, idk la.. let the time decide..

as for now, i'm facing with the final two papers.. BUSINESS LAW & CURRENT AFFAIRS IN SOUTHEAST ASIA. a bit harder and tougher than the other 2 papers earlier. wish me luck ya!
my paper will be held on this coming 5th & 9th May.. and yet i've got MUET exam on 10th. will be going back to home sweet home on the 11th. (maybe laa.. or a bit late. final year kan mama?? hehe)

and now it is already 3.26pm and i haven't do the revision yet.
i'm signing off.
ttyl~

you have no idea

i'm nowhere near perfect.

i eat when i'm bored.

i fall for boys easily.

i'm vulnerable to believing lies.

i make up excuses for everything.

i have best friends and enemies.

i have drama and memories.

and i forget why i'm still here sometimes.

you have no idea.

never.

i'll never forget these word..

• there's no one i'd rather be with than you
• i'll never hurt you
• you mean the world to me
• call me anytime, and i'll be here for you
• i'll care about you forever
• you complete me
• you make me smile
• you mean so much to me
• you know me better than anyone else in the world
• i wish you were here with me right now
• i'd lost without you
• i want to be with you for the rest of my life
• let me spend the night with you
• i'll protect you
• i promise i'll go slow with you
• i trust you
• be with me
• kiss me
• hug me
• i need you
• i love you.

dear dumb diary,

Anyone can be passionate..
but only real lovers can be silly.

killer abs !

perfection is finally attained not when there is n longer anything to add but when there is no longer anything to take away, when a body has been stripped down to its nakedness

happiness

Happiness: We rarely feel it.
I would buy it, beg it, steal it,
Pay in coins of dripping blood
For this one transcendent good.

L'amitie

L'amour vient de l'aveuglement, l'amitie de la connaissance.

(Love comes from blindness, friendship from knowledge.)

L.I.V.E

Run.

Everywhere.

Aimlessly.

Without worrying.

Without looking back.

For the freedom.

Run.

Play.

Without thinking.

Without planning.

With imagination.

With love.

With life.

Play.

Laugh.

Loudly.

Endlessly.

Innocently.

At yourself.

For yourself.

Laugh.

Be.

Crazy.

Funny.

Courageous.

Loving.

Yourself.

Be.

Live.

For yourself.

Helping others.

The way you want.

The way you need.

Your life.

Live.

my baby :)

he is mine.

Your love is an effective anti-dote to despair.

i love you, Sweetheart.

Fun Classroom Psychology Test.

A psychology professor at the University of Miami knew his students expected a terrifyingly long final exam.

To play with their minds a little (what do you expect from a psychology professor?) he only put ONE question on the final exam.

He watched the reactions of the students as they all opened the exams and saw the one question.

Initially they all looked relieved, but as the difficulty of the question began to sink in, those relieved faces sagged to confusion and consternation.

All, that is, except for one student.

He read the question, tapped his pencil into his palm a few times, then jotted something down on the test paper.

He walked up to the professor, handed him the final, and walked out.

The professor blinked in surprise, looked at what the student wrote, and smiled.

The professor wrote "100%" on the top of that student's test.

The question: What is courage?

The student's answer: This is.

SHIT.

A little bird was flying south for the Winter. It was so cold the bird froze and fell to the ground into a large field.

While he was lying there, a cow came by and dropped some dung on him.
As the frozen bird lay there in the pile of cow dung, he began to realize how warm he was.

The dung was actually thawing him out!
He lay there all warm and happy, and soon began to sing for joy.

A passing cat heard the bird singing and came to investigate. Following the sound, the cat discovered the bird under the pile of cow dung, and promptly dug him out and ate him.

Morals of the story:
(1) Not everyone who shits on you is your enemy.
(2) Not everyone who gets you out of shit is your friend.
(3) And when you're in deep shit, it's best to keep your mouth shut!

mode: romantic!

its 2.15 in the morning..

I've been thinking about you 24/7.

i love you sayang..

every single day YES, i've been really missing missing you!

Saipol Anuar, you're the best!

you'll be safe here, baby.

Nobody knows

Just why we're here
Could it be fate
Or random circumstance
At the right place
At the right time
Two roads intertwine

remember how we laughed

until we cried

at the most stupid things

like we were so high

but love was all that we were on

when the light disappears

and when this world's insincere

you'll be safe here.

GOODBYE, MY ALMOST LOVER!

Your fingertips across my skin
The palm trees swaying in the wind
Images

You sang me Spanish lullabies
The sweetest sadness in your eyes
Clever trick

I never want to see you unhappy
I thought you'd want the same for me

Goodbye, my almost lover
Goodbye, my hopeless dream
I'm trying not to think about you
Can't you just let me be?
So long, my luckless romance
My back is turned on you
Should've known you'd bring me heartache
Almost lovers always do

We walked along a crowded street
You took my hand and danced with me
Images

And when you left you kissed my lips
You told me you would never let forget these images, no

I never want to see you unhappy
I thought you'd want the same for me

Goodbye, my almost lover
Goodbye, my hopeless dream
I'm trying not to think about you
Can't you just let me be?
So long, my luckless romance
My back is turned on you
Should've known you'd bring me heartache
Almost lovers always do

I cannot go to the ocean
I cannot drive the streets at night
I cannot wake up in the morning
Without you on my mind
So you're gone and I'm haunted
And I bet you are just fine
Did I make it that easy
To walk right in and out of my life?

Goodbye, my almost lover
Goodbye, my hopeless dream
I'm trying not to think about you
Can't you just let me be?
So long, my luckless romance
My back is turned on you
Should've known you'd bring me heartache
Almost lovers always do

i love you, Alicia!

TRY SLEEPING WITH A BROKEN HEART

Even if you are a million miles away
I could still feel you in my bed
Near me, touch me, feel me

And even at the bottom of the sea
I could still hear it inside my head
Telling me, touch me, feel me
And all the time, you were telling me lies

So tonight, I'm gonna find a way to make it without you
Tonight, I'm gonna find a way to make it without you
I'm gonna hold on to the times that we had
Tonight, I'm gonna find a way to make it without you

Have you ever try sleeping with a broken heart?
Well you could try sleeping in my bed
Lonely, own me, nobody ever shut it down like you

You wore the crown, you made my body feel heaven bound
Why don't you hold me, need me
I thought you told me, you'd never leave me

Looking in the sky I could see your face
And I knew right where I fit in
Take me, make me, you know that I'll always be in love with you
Right till the end

So tonight, I'm gonna find a way to make it without you
I'm gonna find a way to make it without you
I'm gonna hold on to the times that we had
Tonight, I'm gonna find a way to make it without you

Anybody could've told you right from the start it's 'bout to fall apart
So rather than hold on to a broken dream or just hold on to love
And I could find a way to make it, don't hold on too tight
I'll make it without you tonight

So tonight, I'm gonna find a way to make it without you
I'm gonna find a way to make it without you
I'm gonna hold on to the times that we had
Tonight, I'm gonna find a way to make it without you


this is sooooo me! :)

let's crawl..

again?? oh, no!

as time goes by, i think that i could get over him.
but suddenly he showed up.
again.
he text me, called me a few times..
but i'm just too scared to answer it.
plus, i have promised to my friends, and MYSELF that i won't falling for him again.
i checked my inbox, and there was a message.
he said that he misses me. arghh, i miss u even more. more than u could imagine!

goodbye!

hey peeps!
i've been thinking.. when should i go back to SP?
today? or tomorrow? or maybe the day after tomorrow??
herm..
not sure yet.
in dilemma...

You hurt me once... shame on you. You hurt me twice... shame on me.

It hurts to see you walk away. For admit it or not, you were an important part of my life and the time we shared will forever be a part of me. So even though I realize that it was never meant to be, still, it hurts

Oh, I shouldn’t care or wonder where and how you are. But I can’t hide this hurt inside my broken heart. I’m fighting back emotions that I’ve never fought before, ‘cause I’m not supposed to love you anymore.

i have date?? wee~

hey peeps!
today i woke up a lil bit early.. because i've got date with my girl, Sya.. we plan to have lunch together. can't wait! its been ages since we last met. we're like sisters. i love her so much!

herm, last night i texted him. wishing him a goodnight. and u know what? he replied! i was like YEAY!! finally..

me: nite.
him: nite, wek wek
me: tq ...
him: hehe, lawak la..
me: whats so funny huh??
him: the thought that we are pretending that we're not love each other.
me: i'm trying right now. trying so hard to pretend that i don't love u. wish me luck ya..
him: gud luck with that, nite..
me: imy, nite.

honestly, i still love u dear. and it sucks to pretend like i don't love u anymore.. duh,
i miss you. i miss you. i miss you!! argh, i hate this feelings.. because i know, u're not feeling the same towards me.

after talking to my housemate last night, i've decided to go back to SP on this thursday. there's nothing for me here. i mean, of course i have my family.. but still, i feel empty. i still remember when he said to me before the mid sem break started. " i want to spend time with u cyg.." and now? shit! i do understand that u've got gf right now.. and i respect that. me, myself have one. but still, i'm willing to lie and got into fight with my loved one just because i want to spend some quality time with u. arghh, i wish u could see that..

herm, its 11.30am right now. and i have to get ready. i need to get my hair done.
i'd continue this writing once i get back..
bye ppl! ttyl~

they complete me :]

haziq suka donut! hehe.. my another brother. love him. mwah!

Hanafis. my brother from another. the person who i need the most when it comes to kakak-and-abang punya cerita. hehe.
thank you for everything brother. i love you.

fana, she's always be there whenever i need her. she's so funny. i love her.

cikmah. she's the best! eventhough she likes to membebel, but i love her. she's now in Puncak Perdana. me & fana miss her so much!! :)

these 2 girls are my kesayangan. they're my favourite girlss. my life would suck without them!
i love you Fana & Cikmah!!

this is our hobby. and this is what i do best! haha. see how high i could jump??
btw, i miss my white BJU3711

:)

i miss this time. :(

we used to live there.. remain in the memories..

why baby why?

thank you for this lovely teddy,
you-know-who-you-are.

Everything seems fine for the last one month. i was very happy. having him beside me. his scent, his smile, his touch.. but now, everything seems wrong. he no longer my special one. he has new girlfriend. well, congrats my dear. deep down inside, i cried. very hard. knowing that someone can please u more than i do, ouch, soooo hurtful.
and the last couple days, when i woke up and facebook-ing, i found out that u're no longer in my friend list. i wonder why..
it makes me feel like an idiot. u know, we're having fun, chit-chat, cuddling and then boom! i am no longer ur someone.
i just want u to know, no matter what, u'll always be my special friend and i put u right inside my tiny little heart. yeah, u belong in there. :)
i wish u all the happiness with the loved ones..
M.S.S, i will always love you.

dear,
I'm sorry sometimes, I feel a little jealous inside, imagining someone could please you more than me, I guess its my insecurities acting up a bit because I know, I'm not the most beautiful, most fun or even the most exciting girl you’ll ever meet, but I do know that no matter how long and hard you search, you will never find someone who cares about you, the way I do!

I am trying not to cry but cry is all I have done… You said you would never break my heart but its so shattered, i will never find all the pieces!!! You left me in the cold shadowed with grief!!!
You left me with the pain of a million cuts….. I have cried so much my tears have made a pool full. My eyes are so full of grief i cant stand to look at myself in the mirror. I will always love you maybe that's why i cant get over you, I feel like i don't have a heart anymore because YOU took it!!! But the real truth is I MISS YOU I miss your smell your voice your soft caring touch that used to make me feel safe. The pain is so great I wonder will i ever get the image of you walking out the door out of my head?

Everytime i saw you with her my heart died a little more, knowing that i could never have you forever more.
I never planned for it to end like this, i still remember and cherish that last kiss.
Cherish and remember is what i will do, as that is all of what i can have of you.
All that i can have is special to me, miles away you can now by free.
Free with the girl who you love and adore, i once that girl, not anymore..

p/s: I LOVE YOU M.S.S!! AND I WILL ALWAYS DO.

October, baby!!

I am October, baby!

Clairvoyant. Nature lover. You are a born leader. People look up to you. Amiable. Honest. More emotional than practical. Rebellious at times. Totally independent. Good looker. Clever. Faithful towards family, friends and your love. You give importance where due. Dedicated and hard working. Sooooo True!! me love it!

hello sunshine !

the sweetheart :)

i just woke up. a bit late, yeah i know. bukak mata je terus check my phone. nothing. damn, kau xtau ke aku rindu kau?? come on la, msg or gimme a call. i miss u like hell ok. without kemas my bed, terus pegi dapur and i saw my lovely mama and my lil' bro. Good morning Sunshine!! :) well, as usual me online-ing facebook. checking my inbox, notifications and stuff. boring, i know. i am too lazy to mandi. mama always says this to me "u don't have to jimatkan air, babah still blh byr bil. jgn ngada2 bg alasan merapu..pegi mandi!!" haha.. yeah, i always give such a merapu punya alasan because i am too lazy to mandi. sorry mama :) today, i've no idea nk buat ape. maybe just lepak2 kat rumah with my family. Oh, no! bosan. but i'll think something interesting later on la.. ;p right now, mama is cooking. and i'm starving. this is what i usually do. woke up, online, eat lunch, watching tv, eat again, online, and the stories goes on and on and on... again, i am lazy! mind that people. :)

Mr & Mrs Kamarul :)

Selamat Pengantin Baru !

where am i?? :(


today is her big day.. unfortunately, i can't go there. where? oh, her place's in Tumpat, Kelantan. mama not allowing me to go there. and i still don't know why..
:(

Happy Birthday!!

14th February 2010, Happy Birthday to u, my dear friend. :))
herm, i wonder this year u turning to ....?? how old are you my friend?? hee... ;p
anyway, happy birthday.. and i hope our friendship will last long. amin. :)

One word, unique!

i love google. and as i google-ing some random sites, i found these..

• Daewoo ( Means ‘great universe’ in Korean),
  
• Eidos (means ‘species’ in Greek)
  
• Nike (Greek Goddess of Victory),
  
• Sanyo (Means ‘three oceans’ in Japanese),
  
• Sony (From the Latin word ‘sonus’ meaning sound),
  
• Volvo (Means ‘I roll’ in Latin),
  
• Volkswagen (Means people’s car in German)

boring?? yeah, memang pun.. LOL :D
herm, don't know what to write. blur right now..

hello !

Damn bored. and I've decided to create a blog. which x penah pn terpikir nk buat before this. Today is Valentine's Day.. it supposed to be a nice-and-loving day for me. but NOT. got into fight with the boyfriend. its all because i went out with one of my friend and his nephew. [ which i never regret, because i love spending time with him! ]. so i lied to the boyfriend. its for ur own good jugak la sayang..seriously, I HAVE TO okay.. my boyfriend seems sooo angry, and i bet this time memag serious. its okay sayang. i didn't call or texting u for now not because i'm done with you. its because i'm giving u some time and space to think. about the whole relationship thingy.. okay?? I LOVE YOU SAYANG!!