mode: romantic!

its 2.15 in the morning..

I've been thinking about you 24/7.

i love you sayang..

every single day YES, i've been really missing missing you!

Saipol Anuar, you're the best!

you'll be safe here, baby.

Nobody knows

Just why we're here
Could it be fate
Or random circumstance
At the right place
At the right time
Two roads intertwine

remember how we laughed

until we cried

at the most stupid things

like we were so high

but love was all that we were on

when the light disappears

and when this world's insincere

you'll be safe here.

GOODBYE, MY ALMOST LOVER!

Your fingertips across my skin
The palm trees swaying in the wind
Images

You sang me Spanish lullabies
The sweetest sadness in your eyes
Clever trick

I never want to see you unhappy
I thought you'd want the same for me

Goodbye, my almost lover
Goodbye, my hopeless dream
I'm trying not to think about you
Can't you just let me be?
So long, my luckless romance
My back is turned on you
Should've known you'd bring me heartache
Almost lovers always do

We walked along a crowded street
You took my hand and danced with me
Images

And when you left you kissed my lips
You told me you would never let forget these images, no

I never want to see you unhappy
I thought you'd want the same for me

Goodbye, my almost lover
Goodbye, my hopeless dream
I'm trying not to think about you
Can't you just let me be?
So long, my luckless romance
My back is turned on you
Should've known you'd bring me heartache
Almost lovers always do

I cannot go to the ocean
I cannot drive the streets at night
I cannot wake up in the morning
Without you on my mind
So you're gone and I'm haunted
And I bet you are just fine
Did I make it that easy
To walk right in and out of my life?

Goodbye, my almost lover
Goodbye, my hopeless dream
I'm trying not to think about you
Can't you just let me be?
So long, my luckless romance
My back is turned on you
Should've known you'd bring me heartache
Almost lovers always do

i love you, Alicia!

TRY SLEEPING WITH A BROKEN HEART

Even if you are a million miles away
I could still feel you in my bed
Near me, touch me, feel me

And even at the bottom of the sea
I could still hear it inside my head
Telling me, touch me, feel me
And all the time, you were telling me lies

So tonight, I'm gonna find a way to make it without you
Tonight, I'm gonna find a way to make it without you
I'm gonna hold on to the times that we had
Tonight, I'm gonna find a way to make it without you

Have you ever try sleeping with a broken heart?
Well you could try sleeping in my bed
Lonely, own me, nobody ever shut it down like you

You wore the crown, you made my body feel heaven bound
Why don't you hold me, need me
I thought you told me, you'd never leave me

Looking in the sky I could see your face
And I knew right where I fit in
Take me, make me, you know that I'll always be in love with you
Right till the end

So tonight, I'm gonna find a way to make it without you
I'm gonna find a way to make it without you
I'm gonna hold on to the times that we had
Tonight, I'm gonna find a way to make it without you

Anybody could've told you right from the start it's 'bout to fall apart
So rather than hold on to a broken dream or just hold on to love
And I could find a way to make it, don't hold on too tight
I'll make it without you tonight

So tonight, I'm gonna find a way to make it without you
I'm gonna find a way to make it without you
I'm gonna hold on to the times that we had
Tonight, I'm gonna find a way to make it without you


this is sooooo me! :)

let's crawl..

again?? oh, no!

as time goes by, i think that i could get over him.
but suddenly he showed up.
again.
he text me, called me a few times..
but i'm just too scared to answer it.
plus, i have promised to my friends, and MYSELF that i won't falling for him again.
i checked my inbox, and there was a message.
he said that he misses me. arghh, i miss u even more. more than u could imagine!

goodbye!

hey peeps!
i've been thinking.. when should i go back to SP?
today? or tomorrow? or maybe the day after tomorrow??
herm..
not sure yet.
in dilemma...

You hurt me once... shame on you. You hurt me twice... shame on me.

It hurts to see you walk away. For admit it or not, you were an important part of my life and the time we shared will forever be a part of me. So even though I realize that it was never meant to be, still, it hurts

Oh, I shouldn’t care or wonder where and how you are. But I can’t hide this hurt inside my broken heart. I’m fighting back emotions that I’ve never fought before, ‘cause I’m not supposed to love you anymore.

i have date?? wee~

hey peeps!
today i woke up a lil bit early.. because i've got date with my girl, Sya.. we plan to have lunch together. can't wait! its been ages since we last met. we're like sisters. i love her so much!

herm, last night i texted him. wishing him a goodnight. and u know what? he replied! i was like YEAY!! finally..

me: nite.
him: nite, wek wek
me: tq ...
him: hehe, lawak la..
me: whats so funny huh??
him: the thought that we are pretending that we're not love each other.
me: i'm trying right now. trying so hard to pretend that i don't love u. wish me luck ya..
him: gud luck with that, nite..
me: imy, nite.

honestly, i still love u dear. and it sucks to pretend like i don't love u anymore.. duh,
i miss you. i miss you. i miss you!! argh, i hate this feelings.. because i know, u're not feeling the same towards me.

after talking to my housemate last night, i've decided to go back to SP on this thursday. there's nothing for me here. i mean, of course i have my family.. but still, i feel empty. i still remember when he said to me before the mid sem break started. " i want to spend time with u cyg.." and now? shit! i do understand that u've got gf right now.. and i respect that. me, myself have one. but still, i'm willing to lie and got into fight with my loved one just because i want to spend some quality time with u. arghh, i wish u could see that..

herm, its 11.30am right now. and i have to get ready. i need to get my hair done.
i'd continue this writing once i get back..
bye ppl! ttyl~

they complete me :]

haziq suka donut! hehe.. my another brother. love him. mwah!

Hanafis. my brother from another. the person who i need the most when it comes to kakak-and-abang punya cerita. hehe.
thank you for everything brother. i love you.

fana, she's always be there whenever i need her. she's so funny. i love her.

cikmah. she's the best! eventhough she likes to membebel, but i love her. she's now in Puncak Perdana. me & fana miss her so much!! :)

these 2 girls are my kesayangan. they're my favourite girlss. my life would suck without them!
i love you Fana & Cikmah!!

this is our hobby. and this is what i do best! haha. see how high i could jump??
btw, i miss my white BJU3711

:)

i miss this time. :(

we used to live there.. remain in the memories..

why baby why?

thank you for this lovely teddy,
you-know-who-you-are.

Everything seems fine for the last one month. i was very happy. having him beside me. his scent, his smile, his touch.. but now, everything seems wrong. he no longer my special one. he has new girlfriend. well, congrats my dear. deep down inside, i cried. very hard. knowing that someone can please u more than i do, ouch, soooo hurtful.
and the last couple days, when i woke up and facebook-ing, i found out that u're no longer in my friend list. i wonder why..
it makes me feel like an idiot. u know, we're having fun, chit-chat, cuddling and then boom! i am no longer ur someone.
i just want u to know, no matter what, u'll always be my special friend and i put u right inside my tiny little heart. yeah, u belong in there. :)
i wish u all the happiness with the loved ones..
M.S.S, i will always love you.

dear,
I'm sorry sometimes, I feel a little jealous inside, imagining someone could please you more than me, I guess its my insecurities acting up a bit because I know, I'm not the most beautiful, most fun or even the most exciting girl you’ll ever meet, but I do know that no matter how long and hard you search, you will never find someone who cares about you, the way I do!

I am trying not to cry but cry is all I have done… You said you would never break my heart but its so shattered, i will never find all the pieces!!! You left me in the cold shadowed with grief!!!
You left me with the pain of a million cuts….. I have cried so much my tears have made a pool full. My eyes are so full of grief i cant stand to look at myself in the mirror. I will always love you maybe that's why i cant get over you, I feel like i don't have a heart anymore because YOU took it!!! But the real truth is I MISS YOU I miss your smell your voice your soft caring touch that used to make me feel safe. The pain is so great I wonder will i ever get the image of you walking out the door out of my head?

Everytime i saw you with her my heart died a little more, knowing that i could never have you forever more.
I never planned for it to end like this, i still remember and cherish that last kiss.
Cherish and remember is what i will do, as that is all of what i can have of you.
All that i can have is special to me, miles away you can now by free.
Free with the girl who you love and adore, i once that girl, not anymore..

p/s: I LOVE YOU M.S.S!! AND I WILL ALWAYS DO.

October, baby!!

I am October, baby!

Clairvoyant. Nature lover. You are a born leader. People look up to you. Amiable. Honest. More emotional than practical. Rebellious at times. Totally independent. Good looker. Clever. Faithful towards family, friends and your love. You give importance where due. Dedicated and hard working. Sooooo True!! me love it!

hello sunshine !

the sweetheart :)

i just woke up. a bit late, yeah i know. bukak mata je terus check my phone. nothing. damn, kau xtau ke aku rindu kau?? come on la, msg or gimme a call. i miss u like hell ok. without kemas my bed, terus pegi dapur and i saw my lovely mama and my lil' bro. Good morning Sunshine!! :) well, as usual me online-ing facebook. checking my inbox, notifications and stuff. boring, i know. i am too lazy to mandi. mama always says this to me "u don't have to jimatkan air, babah still blh byr bil. jgn ngada2 bg alasan merapu..pegi mandi!!" haha.. yeah, i always give such a merapu punya alasan because i am too lazy to mandi. sorry mama :) today, i've no idea nk buat ape. maybe just lepak2 kat rumah with my family. Oh, no! bosan. but i'll think something interesting later on la.. ;p right now, mama is cooking. and i'm starving. this is what i usually do. woke up, online, eat lunch, watching tv, eat again, online, and the stories goes on and on and on... again, i am lazy! mind that people. :)

Mr & Mrs Kamarul :)

Selamat Pengantin Baru !

where am i?? :(


today is her big day.. unfortunately, i can't go there. where? oh, her place's in Tumpat, Kelantan. mama not allowing me to go there. and i still don't know why..
:(

Happy Birthday!!

14th February 2010, Happy Birthday to u, my dear friend. :))
herm, i wonder this year u turning to ....?? how old are you my friend?? hee... ;p
anyway, happy birthday.. and i hope our friendship will last long. amin. :)

One word, unique!

i love google. and as i google-ing some random sites, i found these..

• Daewoo ( Means ‘great universe’ in Korean),
  
• Eidos (means ‘species’ in Greek)
  
• Nike (Greek Goddess of Victory),
  
• Sanyo (Means ‘three oceans’ in Japanese),
  
• Sony (From the Latin word ‘sonus’ meaning sound),
  
• Volvo (Means ‘I roll’ in Latin),
  
• Volkswagen (Means people’s car in German)

boring?? yeah, memang pun.. LOL :D
herm, don't know what to write. blur right now..

hello !

Damn bored. and I've decided to create a blog. which x penah pn terpikir nk buat before this. Today is Valentine's Day.. it supposed to be a nice-and-loving day for me. but NOT. got into fight with the boyfriend. its all because i went out with one of my friend and his nephew. [ which i never regret, because i love spending time with him! ]. so i lied to the boyfriend. its for ur own good jugak la sayang..seriously, I HAVE TO okay.. my boyfriend seems sooo angry, and i bet this time memag serious. its okay sayang. i didn't call or texting u for now not because i'm done with you. its because i'm giving u some time and space to think. about the whole relationship thingy.. okay?? I LOVE YOU SAYANG!!